A whole bunch of Stuff

Sometimes I feel like my life is full of just stuff. My families life has been very interesting lately while dealing with some health issues, new job ( well not really new but we are still adjusting ) a new baby coming and the Terrible twos / almost threes . At least there is an end there .

Last week exactly a week ago today I went to my doctor for my kidney infection and the resident did his exam and said well we will have to put the PICC line back in ( my portable IV ) and start you on some more antibiotics but you can go home . Well since he was a resident he needed to go to his attending who came in did the whole exam again and discovered that from the time that his resident examined me and he came in I had spiked a fever of 102 and was not doing well at all so up to Land D i went again . Keep in mind that this is the 4Th time i have been up on the 3rd floor of Hershey med in a month a half . So i spent the next 4 days in the hospital while my sweet sweet husband , friend Cheri , and my wonderful dad took over the reigns of my kids and made sure that I didn't have to worry about that part of the craziness . Again baby Tyler is doing wonderful and probably has no care in world other than that he is running out of room to roll and flip and move .

Another thing I am struggling well not really struggling with is that fact that yes there will be three kids in our family soon very very soon . Am I capable of handling these wonderful spirits , Why is it that Heavenly father chose me to have another one of his children in our home . Some days i feel like I'm going to lose it and other days i feel like my kids are going to lose it with me . I really feel this is just the frustration of mommy being in the hospital all the time and being juggled around from house to house and just having a sick mommy.

My house is a disaster and i Just don't have the energy to clean , it needs to be done but i just look at it and say oh i will do that tomorrow . I dream of having this nice clean organized house , Some times i wish someone would just come in and get rid of it all and let me start over . Well that is where we have been but I am alive , i m breathing i have a family who loves me and supports me and a wonderful church who is willing to jump in where ever possible and needed I just need to stop being so prideful and ask for the help when needed .